This week, 2010 Mercy Graduate Sarah shares about her recent trip to Haiti. I love when God uses beautiful Mercy grads to spread His love all over the globe!! Freedom begets freedom...begets freedom...
Pa Za Pa is a Hattian proverb meaning “step by step.”
As I stood on the top of a massive hill I had just climbed in Port au Prince Haiti I couldn’t help thinking, “How did I get here?” And I felt Jesus whisper “Step by step.”
5 years ago, all I could think about was ending my life. From depression to a disability, life didn’t seem worth fighting for. In the hope that someone else would show me how to fight, because I didn’t know how anymore, I stepped foot into Mercy Ministries, and began a journey that would change my life forever.
While there, I encountered Jesus like I never had before. I discovered the joy of His love and plan, and we have been on an adventure ever since. From Mozambique Africa to Port au Prince Haiti, this journey has taken me places I never could have imagined.
Across from where I stood on the hill was a mass grave where 200,000 unidentified people were buried – people who had lost their lives in the earthquake Haiti experienced in 2010. While in Haiti, I saw so much beauty alongside so much heartbreak, and I couldn’t help but think, that’s like life when Jesus comes. He uses all of the things that break your heart to show you who He is. It was easy to see the heartbreak in the poverty and hunger, and lack of education, but the beauty was still there.
I saw beauty in the kids I got to love, who had lost their parents in the earthquake. Kids like Ricardo who though he had special needs, had one of the brightest smiles I’ve ever seen, Gessica, who though she was 7 preferred to be cuddled at all times, and Wilson who wanted to be my walking buddy all week long. I saw beauty in the way Haitians were rebuilding their country and encouraging each other every step of the way. And all I could think was, “if I had taken my life all those years ago, what an adventure I would have missed out on.”
I was in Haiti to discuss moving overseas with a missions organization to teach English as a Second Language when I graduate with my Master of Arts in English in December. The closer I get to this dream, the more thankful I am for my Mercy journey. Though I am still not sure where I will be in December, I can say with certainty it will be an adventure, life with Jesus always is. And I will get there Pa Za Pa, step by step.